To realize your inner observer
"Normally" you are
continuously taken in tow by your thoughts, emotions and desires. You are rarely in your
center. Yes, you don't know your center at all, really. Thus, how to know, that
"you" are in thoughts all the time? Sooner or later you may be hearing of the
possibility of inner freedom, though, something in you, that you really are, your true
identity. Awakening means, making an inner leap to your True Self. It is the realm of
freedom from thinking. You are "here" (your inner observing) and your thoughts
are "there" (in front of you). It is the first step back toward your Origin.
Opening of the
Sitting in a relaxed way on the ground (or chair) for 10 minutes
with the eyes closed. Watch the inside of your eye-lids. You will notice, that you are
here and your eye-lids there (on which you project your thoughts). Thus, you are not your
thinking. See: Awakening
Together with the inner distance
space is created. More and more you acknowledge, that in Essence you are actually
spaciousness. Gradually you will rely more on the inner reality. Through this you would
drop your (ego)control. Everythings is flowing unhindered through you. Among them
undigested remains from your past. More often you will be confronted with rejected
contents: pain, fear, anger, inferiority feelings and inhibitions. You understand, that
these are all parts of yourself, which in the past were too painful to be accepted. Now,
you will have your second chance to still integrating them. Becoming aware and healing
(integration of the personality into the new identity) are two sides of the same coin.
Embracing your selves
and each other.
Sitting vis a vis to each other, doing together various steps of Emotional self-integration. For at home: The Personal Health
Plan in 10 Steps with nutrition, bowel cleansing etc. See: www.vitalworld.org
& Earth Exercises
At the same time inner openings
become more and more large. Initially you are only the inner watcher. Slowly you will
experience moments, in which awareness is expanding itself more. For instance, you sit on
a rock and "suddenly everything drops off". Suddenly there are no thoughts nor
worries anymore. You are dissolved into a Moment of inexpressible clarity. Everything is
as it is, without you being able to still adding something to it. From that moment on you
know, that your Consciousness is bigger than yourself. Not only yourself, but your
environment as well are part of the One Great Consciousness: your Self. Ergo: you
embrace/love everything like yourself.
Heaven and Earth Exercises e.g.
Tiendi Qigong. Unique exercise, that have little to do with the common Qigong. From the
very first moment your Within determines the course of the movements.
By A Green Man/Wise Woman
You have many questions. Because
you feel, that you are missing something. It is not always easy to find the right words
for it. Sometimes there is confusion, sometimes inner emptiness or being deeply
unfulfilled. On the other hand it also happens, that suddenly a Moment of inexplicable
clarity or joy emerges. Unfortunately, these moment are mostly short. But from that moment
on you know, that there is something - a level in yourSelf - where everything is
fundamentally different. Being within you invites you to realize ItSelf. Actually,
"The Eternal Feminine" draws us onwards" (Goethe). It won't get out of your
mind anymore and your Quest has begun.
Praying for the World
Slowly you will start feeling,
that the Path requires less and less effort of your own. It seems, as if you don't move
toward Being, but that Being is drawing you within. In the beginning the longing (toward
liberation) is still coming from your small self (ego). Now you start noticing, that that
"the Origin is longing for you". If that is the case, then time is ripe, that
you may be responding to the longing of the Ultimate. It is the invitation to (still) more
going into depth. Intensive meditation is supporting you with that. With every new opening
you touch the Divine in you. Inner peace, joy, strength, connectedness and compassion are
increasingly penetrating you. You know: my deepest within is part of the Divine Light.
Nothing can bring you out of balance anymore. Joy, joy, gratefulness.
Ma-Zen (Mother-Zen). The Zen,
that brings you to the Origin without effort. It is based on feeling awareness.
Through Chinese Guatharsis
One thing you didn't realize,
though. Namely, that also after a Great Experience you sooner or later will once again be
confronted with your ego. Life resembles a flower. It continuously opens and closes.
Certain teachings - e.g. that claim "once enlightened, always enlightened" -
prove to be false. The Divine regularly "withdraws", in order to giving you a
chance to working on further integration ("Dark Night of the Soul"). The
greatest obstacle is the ongoing temptation to use your Realization as support for your
(ego)ambitions or worse: "I, the great enlightened one". Secondly, because of
your Great Opening-Up unprocessed complexes (hatred, self-pity, need for recognition etc.)
can draw the energy of the Light toward themselves, blowing themselves up. With the Light
increasing, darkness also increases. The latter becoming stronger all the time. With the
danger, that after some time the "widersacher" takes over your entire system.
Continuous inner Purification/Healing
is a necessity. On request a member of the community will give you a Mother Healing (Chinese Guatharsis).
Mantra, Chant, Dance, Offerings
Blessed are those, who on the
one hand do everything themselves to follow the Path toward ultimate Liberation, Peace and
Joy, but on the other hand - through their own experience - come at a point, where they
have transcended the ego. At his stage, you are not able to do anything yourself anymore.
Or the struggle against ego-temptation has exhausted you to such an extent, that the only
option is to give up all self-effort. In both cases only one thing remains. It is the Path
of Surrender. Often you will be spontaneously drawn in e.g. an irresistable longing
emerges to surrender to the Unknown. In reality, it is the Great Mother, Who is longing to
take you in in Her Cosmic Womb. From then on you live in Her All-Embracing Security. It is
the completion of your Quest.
PS. Anyway, you will experience,
that the Path isn't lineair, but cyclical. Confrontations with your small self - the
contents of your Consciousness - won't stop. With every new level of Consciousness a new
understanding and a more complete integration will be achieved. Thus, step 1-7 are
continuously being passed through (spiral process).
Highlight of the
A mix of contemplation, celebration, dance, mantra, chant and offerings. See:
Refuge and especially also Turn On.
With every step your compassion
will be growing as well. While awakening it is your clarity; while doing personal
integration it is love for your own suppressed parts; while being rooted in Heaven and
earth it is the expansion (of awareness) into your direct surroundings; while realizing
the breakthrough of the Light it is the ultimate unity with the Divine; while doing
purification e.g. inner healing it is the acceptance of your dark side (shadow); while
taking refuge in the Mother it is the security, that you share with all sentient and
non-sentient beings. The ultimate insight is, that the inner Path includes a continuous
growth of compassion. Ultimately, there is nothing to attain anymore. What is left is to
share your inner Essence with every being in need. The ultimate paradox: after first
having turned away from people (in order to be able to turning within), your fellow human
beings eventually liberate you from your too much. Gratefulness, gratefulness.
Socializing with the opportunity of serving the community. Guideline is the Vision of the Grail: "Awaken!, restructure your
life and serve others".