1.PREFACE

2.INTRODUCTION

3.MY CHILDHOOD
The beginning
School
Natural medical doctor

4."BEYOND THE BEYOND OF SPACE AND TIME"
The Great Experiences/Ten years of uniterrupted Bliss
Prophecy
A Dream
Vision of the Grail
Explanation/The Trinity
Appendix
My Inner Woman
To make love and be free…. Tantra
The Master
REVELATION OF THE GREAT MOTHER
ABSOLUTE NOTHINGNESS
THE GREAT LIGHT
THE GREAT DEATH/THE UNDERWORLD
Commentary
The Ultimate Sutra
Amsterdam, August 1980
Dance
Kundalini
Silent Power
Next
Nothing Is/The Cycle
Completed

5.DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL
Personal integration: twenty years of trial and error
Abandonment
Self-centeredness
Jealous Monologues

The Inner Adversary
Catharsis
Identity
Kennemerduinen 1990
Japan and Hong Kong
MeiMei
Tribulations/Escape from the hell
of the future
Brazil
Final tribulations

6.THE SACRED VALLEY
(“Sermon of the Valley”)
The Descent
The Depth
The Return

7.TERESA OF AVILA
Teresa of Avila
A Miracle/PilgrimCare

8.MY LIFE'S MYTH
Looking back
Divine Wrath
The Last Struggles
Compassion
Renewal
Beauty

9.HEALING THE PLANET
Lamentation
Sovereign Living
The 7 Steps

10.THE GREAT MOTHER
Confession
(Re)discovery
Acknowledgement

11.TURN ON
Great Mother Hymn

12.EPILOGUE
Being Available
“Evaluation”
The Green Grass

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