1. PREFACE
2. INTRODUCTION
3. MY CHILDHOOD
The beginning
School
Natural medical doctor
4. ON THE "OTHER SIDE"
The Great Experiences/Ten years of
uniterrupted Bliss
Prophecy
A Dream
Vision of the Grail
Explanation/The Trinity
Appendix
My Inner Woman
To make love and be free
Tantra
The Master
REVELATION OF THE GREAT MOTHER
ABSOLUTE NOTHINGNESS
THE GREAT LIGHT
THE GREAT DEATH/THE UNDERWORLD
Commentary
The Ultimate Sutra
Amsterdam, August 1980
Dance
Kundalini
Silent Power
Nothing Is/The Cycle
Completed
5. DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL
Personal integration:
twenty years of trial and error
Abandonment
Self-centeredness
Jealous Monologues
The Inner Adversary
Catharsis
Identity
Kennemerduinen 1990
Japan and Hong Kong
MeiMei
Tribulations/Escape from
the hell of the future
Brazil
Final tribulations
6. THE SACRED VALLEY
(Sermon of the
Valley)
The Descent
The Depth
The Return
7. TERESA OF AVILA
Teresa of Avila
A Miracle/PilgrimCare
8. MY LIFE'S MYTH
Looking back
Divine Wrath
Compassion
Renewal
Beauty
9. LAMENT FOR THE PLANET
Lament
Sovereign Living
The 7 Steps
10. THE GREAT MOTHER
Confession
Re)discovery
Acknowledgement
11. TURN ON
Great Mother Hymn
12. EPILOGUE
Being Available
Evaluation
The Green Grass
ABOUT THIS
BOOK
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Paradise lost
After the Song
of Songs
Whither has Paradise gone, O people of the world? Whither has your
innermost Treasure turned, that we may seek IT with you?
Your Divine Self has retired to the
background, unrecognizable, turning the gardens with the spices and the lilies into
wasteland.
I am my Self and my Self is mine; I know it from memory long ago.
You are beautiful as a Goddess, my love, comely as a Valley, terrible as an army with
banners.
Turn away your Depth from me, for it disturbs me. Too long I dwelled in the grey suburbs
of our mega-cities.
Your third eye is like a shining lake, but alas, it doesn't serve me anymore. It has
extinguished before I started my miserable life.
I desperately search you behind your
veil.
There used to be many queens and concubines, and maidens without number. They guarded the
wells, sharing its abundance with everybody, without exception.
O, I know too well, I grabbed the
land as if it were mine. I forgot about you. Soon the streams dried out, the earth became
barren, the skies empty and the people "thrown upon themselves".
My dove, my Perfect One, was the darling of her Mother, flawless to her that bore her. The
maidens saw her and called her happy; the queens and concubines also, and they praised
her.
"Who is this that looks forth like the dawn, fair as the moon, bright as the sun,
terrible as an army with banners?"
I went down to my memory, and I saw the nut orchard, the blossoms of the valley, the
budding vines, the pomegranates in bloom, lamenting about the losses.
The ego has turned everything ugly.
Before I was born, everything used to be Perfect. What happened to me and the world? Will
we ever laugh, dance and celebrate again?
Return, return, O Paradise, return, return, that we may once again be part of your beauty.
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And
(wo)man, roaming through the wasteland, came with a shock to him(her) Self. What did I
bring about? My spirit woozy, my heart cold like ice and my body under the spell of
greediness.
I must have been
obsessed. While everything looked so normal. We did our duty, took the children to school,
visited cultural events and supported Greenpeace.
When I look into the
mirror, I get scared of my own eyes.
Oh, Mother, at the time
you bore me, you were so happy with your sprout. Hadn't you a delightful future in mind
for me?
Was it a
"law", that I first had to build up my "ego", at the expense of all
and everything? To be honest: I don't know.
What I do know is that
the price is high, too high. I now stand with my back against the wall. All my options
have been gambled away. Who is going to save me from my anxiety?
I was forced to
Remember. Through the banks of the ever-present fog, moments of clarity appeared. Tears
sprung up from my eyes. Am I thus not yet lost?
Mother hasn't forgotten
me. What a miracle that She still cares about me. Her Love is inexhaustible.
When I look around
myself, I notice that I am not alone. Everywhere the spark in the eyes of the people
returns. The hearts are opening up, one recognizes each other once again.
All of a sudden I
realize the immense task that lies before me. Back to the Source, that is the first step.
To get rid of all those artificial skins. Until standing naked before the Truth.
Just like Inanna, THE
great example of all mankind. What a incredible courage to descend*. Love was Her great
driving force. Oh, Mother, may I likewise be filled with Love.
* In the
Underworld.
I promise mySelf to
never revert anymore. Once you know - conscience - there is no way back. However, it would
become a Road of trial and error.
Those who have spoilt
the earth should heal her again, as well.
Thus, one mustn't speak
too soon. Prematureness has to be avoided. Unity is there from eternity, absolutely, it
requires integration of everything excluded, suppressed and denied, though.
What you reject,
dominates you.
The Mother, out of Her
limitless compassion, leads you to still embracing all your inner stepchildren.
I also give back my ego
to Her, yes, I put my whole life into Her Lap.
And look, by doing
this, the grass is raising, the flowers are budding, he bees are going around once again,
the air is fresh like ozone and the trees are regaining their strength.
Her Light Body radiates
through all life. I know I am part of it. Deeply grateful I am accepting Her gift.
Oh, I never thought,
that a "second chance" had been possible. I praise the Mother without
reservation. Thou, Who are the eternal Source of all life.
May we commit ourselves
to A New Heaven, A New Earth and A New Community.
Amargi!
* Greeting from
Sumeria, 3000 BCE. It means "Freedom through the Mother"
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Sovereign Living
The Power of being
yourSelf connected
A
silent revolution is taking place. Th goal is total control over people and society e.g.
the attempt at all costs to continue the current self-destructive system. It will not take
long anymore and (wo)man is trembling with fear for an all-present and at the same time
untangible Big Brother. And then I don't think yet of the climate catastrophe etc. etc.
Suddenly you realize your vulnerability. The big question: is an answer possible? If yes,
from where this has to come?
Dear people. I myself did find out only
very recently. I would thus be the last, who blame you, that the situation hasn't become
entirely clear to you. Hopefully, you will be shocked now. In particular, spiritual people
should b aware of it. Isn't spirituality not about awakening, solidarity and a better
world? To be exclusively concerned with your own spiritual wellbeing proofs to be too
meager. If you love life, then you should feel responsible.
It took a long time,
but this is the Moment we feel, that "we don't have a choice anymore". If you
don't commit yourself NOW, when? We have defined our commitment into three major goals 1) To deepen e.g. to intensify the individual spiritual Way 2)
Life as a connected Whole e.g. "inner is outer" e.g. "above is below"
e.g. "everything is connected to everything", nothing excluded 3) The necessity
of solidarity between all people.
We have worked this out
in 7 Steps*. These 7 Steps are the foundation of "Healing the Planet, to begin with
yourself", like we have announced it in my website. In the teachings and additional
activities we stimulate everybody to put the 7 Steps into practice. While probably having
the feeling in the beginning, that you have to "row against the flow", after
some time you will see, that you are going to receive strength, inspiration and support
from an ever growing group of people.
* Later extended into
10. See in the website.
The 7 Steps
I commit myself to the
following:
1) I see the
necessity of deepening e.g. intensifying my spiritual life. Actually, everything depends
on having contact with the Primordial Ground of existence, the Source of insight, love and
strength. That's why I have to make it a priority in daily life. I am happy with the
suggestion of obliging myself to 3 periods per day of silence, prayer, contemplation
and/or meditation: in the morning after waking up, at noon and in th evening before going
to bed. Obviously, the content I will determine according to my own insights and
priorities.
Support: collected works of Han Marie,
as published in the internet, spiritual advice & guidance, home meetings, regular
teaching, weekends/retreats "The Universal Way".....
2) Linked to spiritual life there is
the necessity to work on my personal integration: spiritual, psychological and physical.
Being fruitful in the world depends on my inner balance. Meditation and therapy belong
together. For that I am very much willing to try out some methods, that can help me with
that, like feeling awareness, emotional self-integration, the mother healing and the
personal health plan, apart from all other therapies, of which I have the feeling
e.g. the experience, that they suit me.
Support: psychotherapy
(initiation/transpersonal), home meetings, regular teaching, group consultation......
3) To begin living healthy (if you
aren't doing this already) obviously, occupies an important position. Don't diseases
increase head over heels? (a.o. stroke, heart arrest, brain tumors, Alzheimer, chronic
disorders with children). Flow system therapy with its 200 self-help methods is a
tremendous support. Also the self-help courses with Chinese guasha have proved to be
especially welcome. Moreover, many of us have already done much in this regard, that's why
we can exchange in all kinds of ways: child care, cooking experience, yoga etc. Our goal
is A New Health Care, not only on small scale, but also big.
Support: flow system therapy acc. to
Han M.Stiekema, MD, courses Chinese guashatherapy, group consultation, personal health
plan, design of A New Health Care....
4) I can also agree with you, where you
say, that in the current world crisis the key issue is the total transformation of self
and society. Aren't the norms and values of an entire culture in an advanced state of
decomposition? It is up to us to develop alternatives. The (spiritual) education of our
children plays a essential role. They cry out for identity, perspective and opportunities.
We are open to all traditions and times in this regard. What we need is a world view based
on "feminine" values, like connectedness, tolerance, community, love, wholeness,
justice and sustainability. The Legend of the Grail takes up a special place, because it
symbolizes THE archetype of personal and collective renewal.
Support: collected
works of Han Marie, as published in the internet, the Grail legend, initiation of
"Green Men" and "Wise Women" groups, study of culture critics of all
times......
5) Our
survival depends on our ability of creating a new community. That this is a serious matter
is proven by the fact, that the "counter forces" actively and resolutely work on
shattering the community (further), this in order to drive the people in the arms of
consumerism. We thus have to fight against forces like seduction, indoctrination,
advertisement, addiction, control, compulsion and manipulation. The counterbalance can
only come from a vitally-alive, strong and democratically- organised community. We could
make a beginning!
Support: collected
works of Han Marie, as published in the internet, community democracy acc. to J.Althusius,
sociocracy acc. to K. Boeke, ideas of e.g.. A.Einstein, M.Buber, E.Fromm and many
others...
6) It is clear, that the earth cannot
tolerate further (unlimited) economic growth anymore. We thus have to work together for a
"Economy of Enough". To realize, that "happiness" is far more
fulfilling than "money" is crucial. Many initatives can be developed. Support
from local, environmentally friendly small enterprises, that moreover serve the community,
is important. We have to bring our saving money to "kosher" banks. Ideas like
part-time jobs, basic income for everyone, subsidiarity and volunteering for the community
cannot be denounced as "utopic". Solidarity with the hungry and expoited peoples
of the Third World is self-evident.
Support: all help, subsidies from
society, ideas like "economy of the enough" (prof.Goudszwaard/H.de Lange) and
"Strohalm" haven't lost their actuality at all.......
7) It is our deepest longing to -
according to our ability - restore the Wholeness of Life. Above mentioned steps lead
"automatically" to "A New Earth". We can never do enough to develop
our ecological awareness further. Indeed, everything is related to everything else,
nothing excluded. It cannot be (like it happens so often) that f.i. everything is being
done to eat healthy, while at the same time a wireless (DECT) telephone - an extreme
harmful thing - is on the bedside table. Electro-smog - apart from toxic load in the
house, industry and agriculture - is one of the greatest threat to our health. We should
demand, that the harmlessness of products and applications is irrefutably proven, before
they are set at us.
Support: all help, subsidies from
society, a golden oldie: Earth Care, starting a climate crisis group, civic action against
electro-smog etc. etc......
"Awaken!,
restructure your life and serve others"
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